Being shy and introverted has its advantages and disadvantages. If you are the type of person who doesn’t really like speaking up in front of many people, like in a classroom or in a group. Then most likely you dreaded a lot of things when it comes to social interaction. Some of the things that most shy people could relate is that feeling of uneasiness when you are in a room full of strangers. The crowd is overwhelming itself, what more if you don’t even know a single individual inside that room. That annoying feeling when people tells you to speak a little bit louder when you are giving your report in the entire class. Or when your relatives tells you to “be more outgoing” and extroverted because everyone thinks that your shyness is an issue but you know it is not. Because you know yourself that as a shy person you have your strength as well. For one thing, people who are shy and quiet always thinks before speaking their mind, that makes them great listener and more considerate as friends, colleague and partner. Most quiet individuals have the making of a good leader because they tend to do twice as much of work to prove themselves. They would favor to be on a sideline and supporting someone than to be on the spotlight.
I don’t know if I can say that thinking before speaking is a strength for me. Because sometimes I over analyze and overthink things. As a result I tend to become foolish when I speak up and would contemplate afterwards why I said this and that. I always wish that I could be as witty and articulate as everyone else. Sometimes I held back far too long that when I actually formed that phrases that I want to deliver it becomes insignificant anymore. I always like to participate in class and visualize myself raising up my hands and deliver the answer in a very articulate manner just like in the movies. But even though I know the answers most of the time I just couldn’t gather up that courage to raise my hand. Maybe because I always fear that my answers are not good enough and I end up regretting afterwards. That self confidence and self belief is just not there. I keep on motivating myself but my social anxiety keeps on dragging me down. I’m too self conscious and feared rejection and failure.
But little did I know that I am always has been a failure ever since I let my social anxiety took over me. I started to realize that this could not be happening forever. I need to do something to dig my self up from this hole I buried myself into. I’ve gone through high school and college without accomplishing anything significant. I don’t want to waste my life doing something that I am not happy with. Just because I settled for things that are easily achievable and forever waiting to gather up the courage to go for what I really want in life. If you want to start living your life, do it now. Not tomorrow, not next month or next year but now. Acknowledge your weaknesses and strengths, from there you set your goals and never give up even when other people tries to put you down.